Tuesday 3/20 6am

called this morning to find out that they have woken my mom up.....as he said trying to decide if she is ready to get this tube out...this must be the "test" that the respiratory therapist (RT) talked about but I can not help but feel guilty not being there for her....but then I think maybe they have done this every morning without me knowing.....maybe not knowing is a good thing??.  My curiosity has been peaked wondering if I will find her without they tube when I arrive there this morning once I can get my family to all their destinations.  This is when I really appreciate my job - there is no pressure from my bosses to return just that I do what is right for me and my family.  I am for sure taking today off and shall see the rest of the week.  I just really like being there when this tube is in although being that she is mostly asleep......it is a double edge sword.  Christian has really stepped up and is spending a lot of time there....we have a sort of system worked where I handle the days (with help) and he the evening about bedtime to see the doc again or just check in....teamwork is a beautiful thing...I will write more later when I get home from the hospital.  Have a good day