Day 47 part 2

I had spoken with the nurse in the morning and she said my mom was the same....not wanting to wear the mask but eating a bit better.  I arrived about 1:30pm and Jen (speech therapist) stopped me to tell me that she had taken my mom into the dining room for lunch...not that my mom was thrilled about it.  My mom ate her lunch for a little while and then when she was done got a bit agitated and frustrated because she felt as though everyone had left her....I told Jen that this happened another day as well.  Jen told my mom that if she ever feels like that then she has to talk to a staff person and ask for help...and tell someone what she needs - to go back to her room.

When I saw my mom the first thing she said was "everyone left me".  Then she told me that she was going to be going home on Friday...really??  I left the room to find Josephil....she confirmed what my mom said that her discharged day would be Friday.  Oh man...I knew it was coming...but is my mom ready?  I go up and down...one day I think that this is going to work fine...then the next day I am thinking oh shit...this isn't going to work.  We will only know when we try.  My mom deserves a chance to try.  She is just going to need a lot of help in the beginning for sure.  Our insurance system is so jacked up...Josephil told me that she thinks my mom would do well in a care home or assisted living type place...but who can afford those places...they average $3500 a month.  So why are they releasing her?  So for now I will be trying to piece together her care between a lot of different people and am looking for a care/companion at home.  I have spoken to someone already....and will have her come over this weekend to meet my mom and see what it is all about.  I know that this is not a job I can do right now.....I have 3 young kids (who need a halfway normal life-I really want to try and keep, at least, their afternoon and evenings "normal") and I am almost done with my school year, it ends June 1 and I just want to finish that out.  I also believe that it would not be a good situation for me to be her "care person" and having someone who has done this before will be the best.  Again we shall see.  My mom admitted that she is nervous about going home...

Until later...have a good Wednesday