Sunday, April 29, 2012

Day 45

Today my mom had a few visitors, I could see the names in the book.  Someone brought her home-grown roses.  I arrived about 1pm, I had to wait for a sitter as it is easier without kids, Sonia had just arrived too.  We walked into my moms room together.  I had talked with to my mom about 9:15 and she was eating breakfast and I told her that I would be there in the early afternoon.  When we got into her room she was very asleep and didn't wake up for us at all.  Her lunch was sitting there completely untouched.

Evelyn came to me and told me that my mom had been up for awhile and had been to physical therapy..ok so she is tired from that.  After about an hour Sonia decided to leave.  My mom had heard some of our conversation as she would interject little comments every now and then.  Evelyn told me that she had been waiting for me to arrive...ok so I was here...and she was sleeping and not about to wake up...I tried and tried - so I just grabbed her laundry and left at 2:30....I am not going to lie I felt frustrated.  I could tell that she "probably" had not worn that stupid mask which meant that she didn't wear much oxygen.  I think it is a vicious circle...no mask....no oxygen....mental status a bit down.  I can not help but worry about her home coming...although I do believe that home is her best bet but I am concerned none the less.

I have not noticed her trying to do any crosswords lately...or reading too much.  I think SNF's are not good for one's psyche because the patients tend to sit in their beds or sleep a lot which reeks havoc on their night time sleep - another vicious cycle.  I sure hope that getting home will cure my mom of that and that she will do what she needs to do to continue healing.  It has to be so hard to have been away from home for so long and to be in a hospital and not on vacation.  She has been through soooooo much but I really feel that it is important that she not wallow too much in that....that she redirect her frustration into getting on her feet completely.

Virginia and Darryl went to see her this afternoon and said that she was great, sitting and talking to them for awhile...they stayed about an hour.  Virginia said that they chatted about lots of things and had a nice visit...and she promised my mom that she would make minestrone soup when she gets home....something to look forward too.  Virginia did bring up the dreaded mask...and my mom told her to "go to %$&*" if you know my mom then that is so her....and Virginia told her to not hold back and tell them how she feels... I think that I am going to try not to bring up the mask - do it like my kids....IGNORE it and see if it takes care of itself - she is going to do what she is going to do....

Take care all.  Thanks for everything




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